T-minus 5 hours! Ekkk!! Scariest thing ever!

It is currently T-minus 5 hours before I gotta check in at Kaiser Sunset. I am both excited and scared to death! My surgery is scheduled for 7:30a but I gotta be there by 5:30a! I gotta wake up at 4:30a and be out of the house by 5a which is probably when college kids goes to sleep and when farmers wake up! Haha I really don't know what to write except that my nerves are just on edge right now! I'm OK right now, I can feel the fear in me but not quite yet probably when I sit on the OR table is when I'll freak out but then I would of been hit with valium or something to calm me down so it shouldn't be too bad. I'm pretty well informed of what to expect since I did my obsessive digging at this surgery procedure, watched other's youtube videos, read other's blogs, started my own blog, research countless medical and informative sites, talked to other jaw surgery patients, you name it I did it! Nonetheless when the actual surgery is here that I am still going to be scared shitless. I wonder whether this is more painful than having a baby. It's funny because before when my mom didn't support me on this decision, she would say that why don't I save the blood loss for childbirth rather than undergoing something so necessary! She says the weirdest thing but I understand her feelings since seeing your child undergo surgery is no one of the things you want to go through especially if it isn't life threatening. My dad will be driving us both there and they will stay with me until I go into the OR and my bro says he'll visit me at night. My handsome and lovely Derrick will come see me I believe even though I didn't really want him to see me all beat up! I hope that tomorrow the genioplasty will be performed at the same time and that I don't have to come back later to be traumatized twice! This is my first major operation so I am on pins and needles, I don't think I can sleep tonight and here I am just blogging when I probably should be packing! I want to write down my thoughts at the exact moment though because if I type it later, I won't remember how I felt at that time so writing out my feelings now is helping calm my nerves a bit. Blogging is actually quite therapeutic, it's just like having a journal except it is so much easier to maintain and create! Tomorrow night will be me with a new jaw so here's to a smooth sailing surgery along with a swift recovery!