Less than 2 weeks to go!!!

So I am approaching my jaw surgery in less than 2 weeks! This friday will be my 2nd pre-op where I meet with my OS and anesthesiologist to ask my loads of questions! I am anxious to know exactly what will get done to my jaws even though I had a preliminary plan already but things might change. Then afterwards I will head down to my ortho to put on my surgical hooks and all that jazz. Will take my last set of xrays and progress photos before operation jaw breakage. I can't wait to see my after results but at the same time am scared of the changes to my face especially my nose. I've lived with this jaw for almost 30 years of my life and to have it change and look different is something I am afraid I cannot accept. I'm kind of scared that I won't recognize the person I see in the mirror anymore. I've heard that depression is common and normal but I don't know if I can handle the physical force on my body along with the mental stress on my mind and soul. I am both excited and scared at the same time. I'm also scared that I won't make it out to see the light of day since one other jaw surgery patient did not make it through although it is a rare occurrence, that's not to say that it won't happen. I gotta start buying all my supplies this weekend as it will be my last weekend before I go under. Will post another entry upon my 2nd pre-op this Friday, stay tuned!